Two summers ago on one of the hottest days of life when the hours (and days) were melting together into an August blur I wrote this little ditty in one quick sitting while noodling around on my guitar sweating profusely in the London heat and trying to distract myself from daydreams of air conditioning and cold water plunges. My mind wandered to love songs and I thought about how I don't tend to write them - why is that, I wondered to myself. 'Well, maybe i'm just not really one for love songs' was my inner reply. And then, perhaps because I was hot and delirious, it suddenly occurred to me I could just write a song about how i'm not really one for love songs. It could be a love song. Ahhh! I do consider myself a bit of a romantic after all, SO I wiped the sweat (sorry, the 'glisten' as we ladies are supposed to say 🙄) from my brow and fantasized a whole scenario of my gorgeous, kind-eyed (imagined) man wandering up to my front door and all the associated feelings, and here we are. STEAMY, I KNOW. We can thank the sweltering heat for that.
This song is really just a little symbol of hope I think, for myself and all the folks out there who have been through a dark time when perhaps we couldn't imagine that the painful feelings and memories would disperse or even dissipate, that things which felt so acutely distressing would ever truly become the 'before' time in our lives, something that we'd ever look back on vaguely and without the sting, and with the realization that everything really does change...even our minds. The song is about possibility and vulnerabilty and hope.
So here's my little love song for those not so into the love songs. And those who are I suppose too. May our lovers appear in a dreamy sweaty haze and make us laugh.
The song is out 29th July, with first listen / pre-release for members now available here.
NOT ONE FOR LOVE SONGS // August summer days, longest on the page. light that never seems to fade, it's just another day and there you are. there you are, and i feel safe. Did I speak it into life? Some alchemy inside? All the birds are singing on our street outside and there you are, there you are, looking in my eyes. there you are, and i come alive. No i'm not one for love songs but baby you may prove me wrong. // Lives that came before. minds i never thought could change. things i once was sure would kill me slowly rearrange and here you are, here you are, and i feel safe. No i'm not one for love songs but baby you may prove me wrong. I'm not one for love songs but baby you may prove me wrong.